More Blah

I hate that my mood and well-being can so easily be affected by the weather, but I feel like I am half alive these days because of the same old grey that I see when I open my eyes every morning(such a strange summer, since the middle of June around here--dark, barely ever any sun and fairly cool). I haven't even been into blogging or visiting blogs lately. The only good thing I can say is that at least this weather is good for the skin(no sunburns possible) and we haven't had to use extra energy use for fans. I wear a light sweater when I leave for work every morning!

Here, a limpid attempt at a blog this morning:

i need

............. to bake in the hot sun , like a lizard

i want

....to feel energized and light-hearted

i listen

.....It hasn't started yet today, since she is still sleeping, but....every day since his death was announced, R plays Michael Jackson songs in her room. They are kind of imprinted on my brain at this point. She is slightly obsessed, which Mr. F remarked made him feel even sadder about the death. Just some birds outside the window is all I hear now. And my typing on this keyboard--sounds quite loud in the otherwise quiet house. Oh yes..also some gentle snoring sounds from Mr. F in the next room.

i feel

....at loose ends and lethargic

i watch

....nothing. No movies or TV lately. Just not interested.

i play

hmmmm....PLAY. I need to do that.

i read

Daphne DuMaurier's "The Birds" (the short story Hitchcock's film was loosely based on) the other night before bed. Now every time I see a bird, I have to think of that chilling story.

i eat

a slice of pumpkin bread and a banana

Blah

This has been pretty much our weather forecast(below, and from today's Yahoo/Weather Channel site) for the last four weeks, and here we go again! Another week of gloom. It doesn't even feel or look like summer here. It feels like we have entered some alternate universe , where every morning starts off grey and gloomy and pretty much stays that way.
Yesterday was a shocker, though. It began and stayed mostly dry and sunny and pleasant--like a normal June day. Of course, this would have to be the one Saturday I worked. I got home then, after 5:00(it was busy at the shop, so at least it went by fast and I didn't even have a chance to look out the window and feel bad by seeing the sunshine), sat outside in the late afternoon sun with a glass of iced tea, and then about 20 minutes later, a cold fog rolled in and it was like that for the rest of the day. And here it is, my one weekend day off, and whaddaya know? It is completely cloudy yet again. So DEpressing.

Detailed Local Forecast:

Today: Cloudy skies with a few showers this afternoon. High 69F. Winds N at 10 to 15 mph. Chance of rain 30%.

Tonight: Cloudy with a few showers. Low near 60F. Winds WNW at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 30%.

Tomorrow: A few showers early, followed by isolated thunderstorms later in the day. High 74F. Winds WSW at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 30%.

Tomorrow night: A few clouds from time to time. Low around 60F. Winds S at 5 to 10 mph.

Tuesday: Partly cloudy with a stray thunderstorm. Highs in the upper 70s and lows in the low 60s.

Wednesday: Scattered thunderstorms possible. Highs in the low 70s and lows in the low 60s.

Thursday: Scattered thunderstorms possible. Highs in the mid 70s and lows in the low 60s.

The thing that makes this worse is that ever since we got this new computer(don't know if I blogged about this much, but our old home PC died last weekend, and J promptly went and found one super cheap-used-on Craig's List the next day), I can't set the weather on my Yahoo homepage to my own location.

Instead it insists on mocking me by always showing me the always bright and sunny weather news from Sunnyvale, California(Yahoo's headquarters?), and I haven't been able to change it to my town as a default location for some odd reason.

We have plans for a little drive up to Trader Joe's in the afternoon, at least. We need to restock our fridge and cabinets, and at least food shopping there is fun and little different.